I think that I am a person who take failures and criticism very harshly. In recent years though, things have gotten better. A growing relationship with Christ and being rooted in my identity has helped me to be more grounded, as a person, and thus I’ve become less affected by the opinions of this world.
However, in this Circuit Breaker season, I grew increasingly sensitive to things that people say about me and the things I hate about myself. I wanted to prove myself to the world – I wanted to be better, smarter, skinnier, prettier so that I’d be well-liked by everyone.
Through nightly virtual ado(s), the Lord spoke to me – a truth from John 15:5. “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in me, and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing”. It was then that I realised how silly I am, because God had reminded me that all the “good” that I ever wanted to be does not, and will never come from me. He reminded me of my powerlessness and nothingness.
This ultra simple and no-frill drawing reflected how I felt. Honestly, I wanted to draw something beautiful and complex….. but I know that I am enough!
